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Day 5 – My morning ride across the Mansion grounds

Members of The English Mansion have been allowed to see behind closed dungeon doors and watch real-life ongoing footage from an intense 24/7 scene of Mistress Sidonia and one of her devoted slaves. (More here & here & here) I asked my slave to briefly write-up his thoughts about this ‘unique’ experience.

One week of total and absolute devotion. No safe word, no respite and no way to stop it – this was an agreement I made with Mistress Sidonia that kicked off a chain of life changing events that would stay with me to this day. I was to be taken to the edge of my physical and mental resistance and my obedience tested to the limit. Mistress Sidonia’s objective was simple, erase the arrogant and egotistical male personality, replacing it with a new being of her creation. This new persona would have nothing but submission, compliance and devotion to her as the sole purpose of its existence. A being with a simple purpose and unquestionable obedience, whatever was asked of it. I never envisaged how hard and painful this process would be, some traits are buried much deeper than we think…

Arriving at the EM on the day was probably the most exciting and nerve wrecking moment of my life. The greeting I received straight away left no room for doubt that this was serious and something I would never forget. The rules were laid down and a contract drawn. Reading it out loud and signing the piece of paper, already in my chains and collar, I thought I understood what it meant, but as Mistress Sidonia remarked straight away, its full and true meaning was beyond my limited comprehension. Its true meaning would, however, become quite evident in the days to come.

Throughout the week my slave had to endure endless extreme physical & mental hardship, minimum calories and disrupted sleep; (in fact there are a number of scenes that had to be censored as we would not be allowed to show them); so in this rather humorous clip you can see just how exhausted my bound slave was once he was left somewhere dark and warm 🙂

What followed was any slave’s best dream and worst nightmare put together. All the details of what happened can be seen in the footage, but Mistress Sidonia’s understanding and total control of the male slave’s psyche meant that she was always two steps ahead, leaving me wondering if mind reading was another of her skills, adding to her extreme beauty. Being naked, in chains and watched 24/7 meant there was no respite, no safe place and nowhere to hide.

Mistress’s chilling voice thru the webcam would send shudders through me and get my heart racing. Knowing that she could burst through the door anytime and punish me (including the middle of the night where I was taken outside in the pouring rain) kept me constantly on edge, breaking down my resistance even further as she intended. This meant that the end result was never in question, it was really only a matter of time..

Day 4 – Feeding the slave from my boots

After it all ended, Mistress Sidonia and I spoke at length about what happened, my feelings and her perspective on it. Although I am more than capable of rationalising it, the truth is that even now my heart still beats faster when I hear the dungeon door being opened suddenly, or the clicking of her heels approaching on the footpath to it. The quasi Pavlovian reaction of dropping to my knees with hands on my head when first in her presence, as instructed during the week, has stayed with me to her great satisfaction. To this day, I keep very strong memories of this experience and the bond it created will never go away. And, albeit in time, her initials carved in my body will eventually fade and disappear – the imprint in my mind will stay forever.
Her Slave FH